Little Sister

She’s always been prettier than me,

for as long as I can remember.

I envied her so

not only because of her beauty,

but also because of her ability

to capture everyone’s heart.

She doesn’t even have to try,

everything seems to come her way

on free will.

Me on the other hand,

always had to bust my ass off

to get that kind of attention.

For some odd reason,

love to her came for free;

when it came to me

everything always had a price.

Nothing was EVER free.

I envied her.

My little sister.

The one person in the world

I vowed to protect and love with all my heart.

My best friend

My one true love…

Then it hits me,

and I ask myself “who is she?”

She’s my sister.

Growing up, the competition between

my little sister and I was irrelevant

especially when I’m no match to begin with.

Then I look past that,

all of it…

She was the one person in the world who

had always kept me from giving up.

The thought of protecting her

and making sure she has someone to look up to

was very important to me.

The thought of her.

My baby sister.

My best friend.

My one true love.

Just the thought of her can make

me stronger, aiming for even higher heights.

In the past I have envied her,

but you can’t give all the love that you have

to someone you envy now, can you?

I had both.

I made a choice.

It was either her, or my envy.

I chose…….

My one true love(:

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I want… I need…

“I’ll give you my car.”

“I’ll buy you whatever you want.”

“I’ll get it for you, no matter the cost.”

“What do you want?”

– Mom

“You. I Need You.”

” Your Unconditional Love.”

“That’s what I want.”

“That’s what I need.”

“That’s what I’m craving.”

– Me

 

Mutual Silence

Mom came over earlier today

and picked me up so we can

have our mother-daughter

chit chat someplace serene.

What usually takes five minutes

felt like a one hour drive.

Breathing in the same heavy air

we were both exhaling inside the

car she decided to use.

Neither of us uttered a word,

and the silence surrounding us

felt like a punch in the gut

as it grew and occupied the rest of

the space between my mother and I.

I looked outside the window

through the passenger’s side,

amused by how fast it suddenly

went dark as the clouds covered

the sun completely.

It looked like it was going to rain…

No perhaps a storm,

which I found ironic.

It was as if the real world was

reflecting both my feelings and emotions

right in front of me.

Not a pretty sight, considering

the fact that the wind was

gushing furiously taking its toll

out on miniature trees next

to the sidewalk.

I wanted to melt the ice

and I was pretty certain that my mother

wanted the same exact thing.

Yet we remained quiet,

barely looking at each other

avoiding eye contact at all cost.

I should be used to this…